Let's Resolve Resolutions

Okay, so right now I'm at the point where I want to make some changes in my life. The most notable resolution that I had once made & has not been resolved is attempting to be happy. My day to day life consist of simply going through the motions and coping with life. I think once one realizes that they are not happy and identify what it is that is not making them happy they can begin to make necessary changes to become happy. First of all, I want to take a break on attempting to make a relationship work with him or begin to build new relationships with *new boys*. I say this because I'm sad that when I tell him we should get together and talk, he blows me off saying he's not in the mood to talk. As many sacrifices as I've made for him, he doesn't even respect me enough to talk to me when I'm feeling down. I'm sad about *new boy* b/c now that we've done whatever, he's become standoffish and hardly calls. I told him I didn't want this to happen and of course it has. On the whole, I'm tired of being used and feeling used so much. I think it's time to just focus on me.