Our time has come to part 2008

Wow, so I just got back into town Sunday and here I am. Christmas was awesome. We got to go to the Smithsonian museum and it was the BEST thing I did all year. I promise to post pictures later, and there are tons of them. I'm sure there are bloggers all over the world posting what they've learned this past year, what they're looking forward to, or even just going over fun memories. Not me suckas! No seriously, I'm thinking of 28 things I wish I had done differently. How is 2009 supposed to be a better year with self-growth and the works if we don't stop and say "Why did I do that?"...

28. I wish I would have stayed at my previous job even if the money wasn't as good

27. I wish I would have stayed with the same stylist at Aveda. Maybe my hair wouldn't be falling out now.

26. I wish I would have paid more attention in Dr. Brown's classes & got something out of them other than a good grade (even if he is the biggest joke in the English dept.)

25. I wish I would have got a tutor for French and not taken it with the same professor just b/c I've had him before.

24. I wish I would've taken more classes out of the ones I typically take.

23. I wish I would've been nicer to my parents.

22. I wish I would've stopped using my credit cards.

21. I wish I would have done something more fun for my 21st bday this past June.

20. I wish I would've spoke my mind more and not just gone along with what he said.

19. I wish I would've transferred to UGA when I had the chance.

18. I wish I would've spent more time reading and learning about the world. Hell, or even living it.

17. I wish I would've not stressed out so much about money.

16. I wish I would've not stressed out so much about the things I could not change.

15. I wish I would've not been so against trying new things.

14. I wish I would've taken more time for myself to unwind.

13. I wish I would've not been so friendly at work and thus, end up caught up in drama.

12. I wish I wouldn't have continued to try to be friends with his friends no matter how bad they treated me.

11. I wish I wouldn't have cried myself to sleep countless nights over him when he probably wasn't crying over me.

10. I wish I would've got the fantasy out of my head that we can make this work.

9.   I wish I would've stopped caring.

8.  I wish I would've learned I would be okay without him.

7.   I wish I wouldn't let his friends get to me and put up with them for as long as I did.

6.   I wish I would've did something fun.

5.   I wish I wouldn't have wasted so much time worrying about what to do with my life.

4.   I wish I wouldn't have stressed out about money so much.

3.   I wish I wouldn't keep letting him back into my life.

2.   I wish I would've told him I was through & really meant it.

1.    I wish I could've gotten over him....

Hit the Road Jack

Alright, so my brother swears I won't be ready to get on the road by 6am so here I am up at 5am just to prove him wrong. I am not a morning person at all so Etam's sleepy model ad is how I feel, but I wish I could look that put together when I wake up! Instead, I'm wearing a pair of AE sweats, long johns, and a t-shirt from my college. Anyways, today my brother and I leave for the VA/DC area to go visit our parents. It's easier to say DC b/c they live roughly 30min away in the burbs of VA. We haven't seen their new house yet so I'm excited about that. What I'm not excited about is this is going to be my Yorkie's first significant road trip. I have an 11hr drive with two Yorkies in my lap to look forward to. I bought Kali a car seat but man it is like pulling teeth to try to get her to stay in it. She acts like I am abusing her. It's so sad b/c her car seat is hot pink with her name monnogramed on it:

Then my boy doesn't have one and he'll get all jealous :-). Yes, for the record my brother just came in my room saying now we're leaving at 6:30. All that talk about I'm not going to be ready and look who's not ready!?!  Haha now we're arguing about it. Nope, we're leaving at 6am. He said it 30,000 times and I'm ready so now he has to get ready! That being said, I need to go walk the doggies. Be back soon!

Life

So, I was talking to my parents and it basically seems like they're going to try to force me to move back home! That's right, Dad's not signing my loan or will he pay my rent when I graduate so that supposedly will leave me optionless. Thus, I will have to move back to my family's home in Virginia and sit on my ass all day. My dad's living in this fairytale where my brother and I will continue living at home forever. No joke. Granted I'm not sure if I really want to go to law school, there's no way I can live under my father's roof ever again. Things are really getting crazy for me. Now more than ever I'm thinking of just packing up and moving to NYC when I graduate this summer. Of course I'd like to do so with a job. I've been looking at positions I could take as an entry level assistant or something of the sort. My dream would be to get into the publishing or fashion industry. I've thought about public relations (hence fashion industry), or working my way up to becoming an editor. I just always think that there are a million gals out there with this exact same idea! I'm worried I'll only get paid like 10 bucks an hour if I am able to land a gig and in New York I'm sure housing is 6x what I'll be able to afford. Any of you New Yorkers out there have any advice or suggestions? The pressure is getting to me because now is the time I have to decide what it is I'm going to do and just how I'm going to get there...

A bit out of the ordinary

Gosh, I love this weather. When it's the middle of December and it's close to 70 and all I need is this: 

Only in the South folks. Still, I wouldn't mind the opportunity to get the hell out of here. I've been here long enough already. Having lived everywhere from Cali to Germany and places in-between like Texas, I'm not used to staying in one place very long. A father in the military will do it to ya. I remember I used to be so scared I'd be stuck in Georgia forever when we settled here so my brother and I could attend high school in one place. Eight years later, and I'm still here...

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas

Greetings everyone. I decided to put everything that's wrong with my life behind me for a bit and just enjoy the holidays. It's all I can do at this point. I had been getting migrane headaches that were so bad I just laid in bed all day the past few days. The only thing they're from is stress. That being said, all I can do is take it easy so I don't make myself sick. I read a hilarious post here about the wonderful world of unemployment that really lifted my spirits. That combined with the encouraging comments from you lovely people out there and some sprucing up a bit around here has made things "okay" for me right now :)

So, since I'm way too picky and my parents would like to save themselves the time of returning gifts, they called me and had me go online to approve all gifts. How crazy is that? I didn't think I was that hard to please. Nonetheless, this is what I'm getting next week.

Supposedly it's this bag but with gold handles. I didn

't see it on the Coach website so maybe they're talking about something else. I've been wanting a new Coach bad forever so I won't complain either way! I also got these unusual babies.

They're by Nine West and called Ice Blue. At first, I thought they were way too weird, but my mom insist they're really pretty. They also got a lot of good reviews on piperlime which also has lots more pictures as well. I'm still unsure about the boots but I'm excited nonetheless! I had the same black Nine West boots since 10th grade of high school and I wore those boots out. I finally got rid of them last year (so I wore them for 6 years as my only boots). I think I'm developing a shoe fetish. Emily posted a picture of a pair of eggplant nine west boots that are going on my wishlist ASAP. I love the color and how different they are! I need a job! You should notice I've done some major revamping around here! I'm happy!

Is it Really Her

Gosh, I've felt SO MIA lately. It's mostly because I've been feeling as if my life is simply spinning out of control to say the least. I don't know if bad things just seem to happen to me during the winter, if I'm more prone to seasonal depression from lack of sunlight, or what the cause really is but I always seem to find myself in a bad situation during this time of year.  To start, I didn't pass French. Well, I passed but I made a C- and needed a C to move on so now I cannot graduate in May. I will graduate this summer and start law school *4* days later. How much closer can I cut it? So, there goes any sort of break and here comes the pressure of finding a decent place and moving hella fast. Okay, that added to my current financial situation has done more than enough to make me just want to lay in bed and cry all day. I'm out here going to job fairs and trying to find a job since the spa I worked at is basically going out of buisness. I tried so hard not to get behind and I know the economy as a whole is screwed, but I need to be able to get a loan for law school, so this brings the problems full circle. No loan for law school means how am I going to pay for housing? I could go on and on but enough of the tyraid. Life sucks big time right now.

I miss the times I was dedicated to me. The times I would eagerly wake up at 6am to go for a run, or walk my babies in the middle of the day just because. I remember attending a packed yoga class where I could barely get a good spot if I wasn't 5 min early was my idea of a Saturday. What happened to my sense of stability? I haven't practiced yoga in maybe 4, yes 4 months or even seen the inside of a gym for that length of time as well.  I miss when reading a good book gave me chills and kept me up at night. I remember when my Elle, Lucky, and Vogue mags where eagerly read each month and weren't just collecting dust. When did everything change?

M.I.A due to finals!! I have to pass my French final in order to pass and I need to pass French in order to graduate! In other news, I got accepted to University of Georgia School of Law!!! And in final news, he called yesterday. After a really bad breakup I thought we would never speak to each other again. He was the one and still is the one. Now, he's either finally realizing or finally admitting (probably both) that he really messed up and it's going to take a lot. But love can prevail above all else. It's not like he cheated or beat me up or anything. We just had trust and jealousy issues and his friends hate me so he let that come between us. I always prayed for God to show me and us the way. This time around things may turn out okay. 

More to come...