Is it Really Her

Gosh, I've felt SO MIA lately. It's mostly because I've been feeling as if my life is simply spinning out of control to say the least. I don't know if bad things just seem to happen to me during the winter, if I'm more prone to seasonal depression from lack of sunlight, or what the cause really is but I always seem to find myself in a bad situation during this time of year.  To start, I didn't pass French. Well, I passed but I made a C- and needed a C to move on so now I cannot graduate in May. I will graduate this summer and start law school *4* days later. How much closer can I cut it? So, there goes any sort of break and here comes the pressure of finding a decent place and moving hella fast. Okay, that added to my current financial situation has done more than enough to make me just want to lay in bed and cry all day. I'm out here going to job fairs and trying to find a job since the spa I worked at is basically going out of buisness. I tried so hard not to get behind and I know the economy as a whole is screwed, but I need to be able to get a loan for law school, so this brings the problems full circle. No loan for law school means how am I going to pay for housing? I could go on and on but enough of the tyraid. Life sucks big time right now.

I miss the times I was dedicated to me. The times I would eagerly wake up at 6am to go for a run, or walk my babies in the middle of the day just because. I remember attending a packed yoga class where I could barely get a good spot if I wasn't 5 min early was my idea of a Saturday. What happened to my sense of stability? I haven't practiced yoga in maybe 4, yes 4 months or even seen the inside of a gym for that length of time as well.  I miss when reading a good book gave me chills and kept me up at night. I remember when my Elle, Lucky, and Vogue mags where eagerly read each month and weren't just collecting dust. When did everything change?